anger

i should stop feeling mad at myself, at the world, at everything. it's bursting to the point where i just want to snap at someone and kick and scream and pull somebody's hair out.

a molehill out of a mountain. incomprehendible notes. why is university so much worse.

everytime i log on to msn, and see something, and i will get mad again. i feel like a hypocrite. i don't see why i should work at saving something when something is already half gone. if he's not even trying, i don't see why i should too. isn't it making things ten times worse.

and school work made it seems like it's JC again. like it's horrible. like when i couldn't find a single brain juice on me. like when i couldn't do anything. like when the end is the only route out.

i think i'm talking in codes only i will understand. maybe it's my sensitivity. maybe it's just me.

argh.